Jake* has been with us the past three weekends. Today he returned and will be staying for 10 days while his foster family are on vacation.
Tuesday, August 5th my social worker met with me to do some training. Then she announced my probation period had come to an end. It was supposed to be 6mths but, thankfully, has been shortened. The reason for the leniency was the hope that Jake could move to my home.
Thanks to some inquiries made by my friend who works for the same fostering agency, I was ready for the offer. And had my mind made up. “For the same reason it’s not working where he is, it won’t work for us.” His current foster mom is requesting shared care. Between the two of us we could likely manage. But Jake, without school or daycare, is a little much for anyone.
He’s sweet and caring. When he goes non-stop then doesn’t sleep all night, it’s tiring for his caregivers. There’s no way of knowing if he’ll sleep or for how long. Being on call 24hrs a day, 7 days a week isn’t feasible. It’s just not.
So I said no. The social worker didn’t really understand. She used to work with autistic children in a school setting. Her suggestion is reward charts and using candy as an incentive. That may work for Jake in the future. At the moment he’s not able to understand. So that means endlessly redirecting and trying to anticipate what he might do. And sitting up with him into the wee hours of the night, waiting for him to fall asleep so we can wake in a few hours and start it all again.
I know he needs a home. He deserves to settle down, in a loving environment. But I’m not able to provide that long-term.
There are three things I need to pull off this single parenting gig I’ve gotten myself into: a good night’s sleep, time alone each evening, the opportunity to connect with friends. With Jake, I don’t get any of those things. We will make it through the next 10 days. But I can’t commit with no end in sight.
Sorry. That’s just the way it is. Still, knowing it won’t work doesn’t make the decision any easier.
That is so hard! My friend’s sin also never slept until getting a huge diet change and meds. Sounds like you made the right decision for the both of you.
My friend’s “son!”
So glad you have facilitated the Boundaries course in the past! Mark this one down with a gold star. Hard decision but best for all concerned including Jake. It may force the issue and lead to double the love!