Today has been an up and down sort of day. There were some great moments
– like stopping to enjoy the first blooms of the season. We live in an amazing area full of orchards and vineyards. Spring is a glorious season.
There were not so great moments – like when Athena stole another child’s seat at story & craft time. All morning she’d been completely ignoring me and everyone else. As the child, who lost her seat, cried and kind mothers all around tried to convince Athena to shift back to her own spot my daughter pretended not to hear anyone. “You need to get back in your own spot,” I informed her. And she did. So really it wasn’t that bad.
Raine’s melt down when I tried to show her how to knot the string so she could make a necklace certainly was. When she started throwing the glass beads we got from the thrift store, I gathered them up and took them away. That was not well received. A torrent of rage unfurled from her mouth. “I wish there was no such thing as mother’s day! I wish I never made you a card or a bracelet that broke! I don’t ever want to see you again!” The craft at Chapter’s today was a bracelet for mom. The one Raine made broke as I carried bags out of Winner’s.
I didn’t give her words much weight. Holidays are hard – especially Mother’s Day. Thankfully, I was reassured by her words last night.
For about a month we’ve been doing a gratitude journal. At bedtime she tells me 3 things she’s happy about/thankful for. One item on the list must be about a person in her life. Mostly she says, “I have a mom who loves me.” That was 2nd on the list last night. But for her 5th item (there was a lot that made her happy yesterday), she said, “And I have a mom who never, ever, ever, ever gives up on me.”
Praying she always carries that truth with her. Even though there are low times, I’m not giving up.
It’s always like springtime with You, making all things new
Your light is breaking through the dark
This love it is sweeter than wine
Bringing joy, bringing life
Your hope is rising like the dawn
This is what You do, this is what You do
You make me come alive…